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Venus de Willendorf, fertility goddess from the Paleolithic era.

I'm going to go to the Avenue in Viera at 5pm to meet up with Peter and his girlfriend Summer. I'll probably head over there a little earlier since we're going to meet up at Book-a-Million and then head over to the Pizza place. I haven't seen him since high school. Amazing, how people change.

It's so important to have good friends. It's one of the priceless things in life. We have to cherish those friendships.

=) more later when I get back. Oh, I bought a Hank Williams cd last night. What was I thinking?

I just received a message from a man on Facebook. Apparently, he's English and has quite a few of the same interests I do. I'm usually wary of such messages, but he's asked if I know about Sam Harris, therefore I think I'll write back to him. Should be safe enough. I'll give it a try.

I went to see my State Farm agent today and I haven't seen her in person for a year or so, and when she greeted me she said, "Oh my god, Andrea you've grown up. Look at you, you've turned into an incredibly beautiful woman."

So, that was nice, I was always this chubby, nerdy, short, shy thing and last semester + falling into a strange infatuation + hormonal regulation + a lot of exercise = me today. I like myself now for the first time in my life really. I feel confident in my self, I do feel I have at least a small power now with my femininity. But, surprisingly, most men don't like a feminine woman. So, I'm kind of stuck in some dead-end.

I don't like most guys, I am very very very picky. It took me four years to find a guy to my liking to go out with. I've had two boyfriends, Ty in high school when I was 17, which was nice, Brian the 53 year-old online (nothing developed)- and then Bryan at UCF when I was 21, which was just bordering on abusive. I really wish he could have had the balls to have been nice and remained friends like Ty and I have.

But the point is that, I feel like I have changed enormously. Even since May.

The internet has made personal expression easier and more accessible to the public. There are many aspects of modern-day life that I find repugnant and cold, but hopefully in time, people will become kinder to each other and throw away their superstitious beliefs in favour of reason.

If I could find a man like Dawkins, I would seriously do anything for him. Love him, have his baby, anything. I want an intelligent man who is not religious and who is kind. Doesn't look like I'll ever find one. I don't think a good man really exists anymore.